Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Ramblings about my day

So today has been a success.
Ate healthily
Worked out a bit
made a new spotify playlist
found new bands
I got a devotional book called Live Second: 365 ways to make Jesus first.
finished day 1.
so far so good.
I think i'm going to like this.
I got another book called God Loves Ugly.
It's about this girl that struggled with bulimia.
I found the story line very interesting and I'm pretty pumped to read about her journey.
The last book that I got is called Praying for your future husband: preparing your heart for his
Because i'm single, i thought i should take advantage of this time and read up lol
All in all I am trying to become a better person this year.
I have a tendency to be super sarcastic all the time.
that's just who I am.
I'm rarely serious about anything and I rarely take actual offense to things.
Yet a lot of times I like to think that i'm better than everyone else.
i'm going to change that this year
starting this morning
all those egotistical e-cards that you read.
basically my life.
I have to work at 8 in the morning omg.
this is not a fun time.
but i'm not that tired so i don't really care.
I have a pretty busy day ahead of me tomorrow.
work from 8-1:30 then going to a late lunch with my best friends.
one of my best friends is leaving saturday morning to go to school in Kentucky.
I am so proud of her for choosing a great major
but it's not a fun time because I am going to miss her like crazy.
Tomorrow is the goodbye lunch.
Goodbyes are never easy.
but it obviously has to happen.
and it's not like we'll never see each other again.
there's spring break/summer break.
it's not goodbye, more like see you later.

New year, new me

Today is January 1st, 2013.
It is the start of a new year.
A chance to make a clean slate.
Make this year better than last year.
A lot of people make New Year's Resolutions.
I try every year and I do well for about a week and then I fail.
I feel like that is how most people are though.
This year, I want it to be different.
I need to lose 52lbs to get to my goal weight.
I need to lose that weight by Mid-May/Early June.
I want that summer body.
I need that summer body.
I need to be healthier.
I have been having chest pains for a long time and I was always scared that they had something to do with my heart or lungs. I've only smoked a handful of times and I don't even do it the right way because I fear that I will get cancer because that is just my luck. My mom has had a couple of heart attacks at a young age so that is always a concern. Diabetes runs on both sides of my family and my chances of getting it are very high.
All of these health problems are quite the concern.
Anyways, I went to the doctor for my chest pain and I was dreading it the entire time. I didn't want to know if there was something wrong with my heart or lungs. I did but then again I didn't.
I was diagnosed with Costochondritis. which is basically like arthritis in the ribs, near the breastbone and the sternum. This usually occurs from a blow to the chest or something. That makes perfect sense because when I was in high school I was a base in cheerleading. And my flyer, though I loved her dearly, was not the lightest flyer in the world.
THANK GOD it is nothing too serious.
But still.
That was motivation enough for me to get healthier and not smoke at all anymore. It's gonna be a challenge but it's something that I have to do.
I need all the prayers that I can get.
Thank you and also thank you for reading this!
first blog - DONE.
New year, new me.